Feel Nothing!!! - Wish for Numbness to Crawl in!!!

Its hard to relate what I feel tonight. Its hard to say all the words I want to say to you. I want to stand beside you and hold your hand forever. I told you so many times about how I feel but it seems that you were deaf to all my words. Can you not see I am the one who loves you and who wants to be a part of your life who wants to be a part of you. You warned me not to get too attached. I was foolish to not heed. I prisoned myself in this sadness and fell for you, now I am captured here as if a life sentence.

What does it take to tell your heart that the one for whom its beating cannot hear the heartbeat... What does it take the eyes to tell that the one for whom they are shedding tears will not give them the warmth of his sight... What does it take to tell the lips that the one whose name it enchants will not touch them again... What does it take the feeling of emptiness to fade away... What does it take to let your thoughts not wander away in his pursuit... What does it take for you to make him realize that you are the one for him... What does it take to stop yourself from reminiscing about him... What does it take to stop blaming yourself when he is the one who wronged you... What does it take for stopping yourself from reading the chats and the messages over and over again... What does it take to accept him with his past... What does it take to take out your anger on him when you come to know he was not faithful...  What does it take to make someone realize your importance... What does it take to stop looking at his photos time and again... What does it take to stop the flow of tears which flow uncontrollably... What does it take for me to count you in my past.

Just a wish of a sad heart to be remembered by the one it yearns for or to forget the one who despise it.