Just not for you!!!

For the girl who strongly believed in only one thing since small was the only thing that stood in her way hurting her at every step. She should have given up hope till now but she held on strongly to her beliefs. Love was not just a word for her it was her need. She believed not in a prince charming coming riding on a white horse and sweeping her off the feet and taking her away to his land of happiness. She believed not in love of fairy tales but of reality. She believed that there was a guy perfect for her who would love her more than himself, who would care for her infinitely and who could not get enough of her. But she didn't knew it was too much she had been asking for. Love is not something everyone is lucky to get, there are some unlucky who don't cherish it. And alas she was the part of that unlucky clan. She might have made a mistake while asking for love for she experienced loving someone but never experienced being loved back. She fell for guys who didn't even care for her existence and she was there giving her every ounce of attention to them. She must have been a hell lot of crazy girl. She knew it was hard for her fate to turn in her favor yet she never missed a chance to ask God for her soul-mate. Whenever it felt like cupid finally had mercy on her the arrow of harsh reality would wake her up and she would find herself standing again in the rain of tears. It was hard for her to find true love but much harder was to accept the fact that true love didn't exist for her. She was not made to cherish this happiness. The situation is that a small happiness now seems too volatile to her as it would disappear the next instance she begins to enjoy the moment. She feels threatened by her own happiness. She finally realized that Shahrukh-wala-love is just a fantasy, atleast for her. No perfect soul-mate is going to come for her and whisk her away to his place. She has to give up all the hopes of a person who will love her back because that ain't gonna happen to her. Just let her ask for strength to climb up from the pit holes of love she encounters in the walk of her life because attachment is what she fears the most and the one thing she can't help getting into.

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  1. Anonymous14 March 2013 at 09:22

    very well written... shahrukh wala love do exist.. u will surely expirience it one day :) :)

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  2. Akanksha Adaval14 March 2013 at 10:27

    Thank you.. Hope so :-)

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  3. Anonymous14 March 2013 at 10:32

    :)

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  4. Anonymous17 March 2013 at 02:53

    Very well written, Love is their and surely one day you will find it. One suggestion, just change the background color from Black to another color, it doesn't suits the genre of your prose. I think you can try your hand in poetry as well.

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