Wishes at a glance!!!

I am sorry! I seldom act so immature. Most of the time, I don’t stand by these acts of self-destruction. But that day was different. It brought with it the feelings of regret, jealousy, emptiness, loneliness, ignorance and frustration. I was having trouble getting up from the bed. I recall that I just switched on my phone [which was lying switched off from past 24 hours, to see to whom I mattered: foolish act]. Just few ‘click-this-link-to-win-$5000000’, ‘become-fair-in-20days’, ‘find your suitable life partner’ mails popped up. No-one had even missed me? I was being absurd, it was only 11am in the morning and I was forgetting that people had a life of their own. I listlessly crawled out of bed and made myself a hot cup of coffee. Walking towards the balcony with the hot cup giving me warmth, I stood at the balcony for uncountable minutes. When the morning had finally washed over me; I started feeling restless. The cup in my hand was empty, the street which overlooked my house was em...

What is it that sheds the darkness over me? What am I doing amidst the negativities? Is it true that what seemed possible was just a fleeting moment? Is it true that the raindrops are only means to shield the tears? Have I been left alone or have I pushed people away? क्यों नहीं ये रातें अब चैन की नींद लेके है आती ? क्यों नहीं ये दिन नयीआशाओं की किरण है लेके आती ? क्यों खो जाती हूँ इस दुनिया के वेहेमो में ? क्यों बांधती हूँ लोगों से उम्मीदों के धागे ? कहीं तो कुछ खोया था जिसे आज तक ढूंढ़ती फिर रही हूँ  Lost within self or lost amidst crowd I am finding an escape from my own shadows Nothing to gain but still a lot to lose Where to go, What to achieve जब भी हाथ फैलाया एक नया साथी था पाया  अब बस खालीपन मिलता है, दिल दोस्त बनाना भूल चूका है? क्यों नहीं वो मिलता जो हम दुआ में मांगते है  बस हज़ारों ख़वासिहों के भीतर छुप के बैठ जाते हैं।