Wishes at a glance!!!

I am not very good at expressing my feelings in hindi (doesn't mean I am good in english) but I thought of trying my hand at it and came out with this. Hope its not as bad I think it to be. कभी बैठे बैठे सोचती हूँ , की यूँ बदल जाये मेरी ज़िन्दगी, जो सपने संजोये थे आँखों में, हकीकत बन जाये मेरी | जब कभी सोचूं तुम्हारे बारे में मैं, तुम यूँ मुस्कुरा दो मेरे सामने, की सारे दर्द भुला कर मैं, गले लगा लूँ तुम्हे | कभी बैठे बैठे सोचती हूँ, की बादल की चादर ओढ़े ये तारे, आँखों में मेरी बस जाये, खिलखिलाता हुआ सा ये जीवन, सिर्फ एक ख्वाब न रह जाये | दोस्तों के दरमियान गुज़रे थे जो पल, वो वापस आकर मेरे दामन में समां जाये | कभी बैठे बैठे सोचती हूँ, की ये मुस्कुराते हुए फूल, कभी न मुरझाये, किये थे जो वादे सब से वो हम निभाए | परिवार से दूर रहने का डर मुझे ना सताए, माँ-बाप का प्यार मेरा आँचल बन जाये | कभी बैठे बैठे सोचती हूँ, क्यूँ ये आंसूं रुकते नहीं, क्यूँ ये दर्द मिटता नही, क्या इन्हें इंतज़ार है किसी अपने का? हाँ, शायद क्यूंकि कोई मुझे समझता नही | चल पड़ी हूँ म...

Something's not stable, Something's creating havoc in my mind, I have a lot to reason, I have a lot to find. I am not the one I was before, I have changed a lot. Created from the hands of God; Now I am a creature who is on her own. I have wishes to fulfill, I have dreams to accomplish, I have motives lying bare infront of me, Yet there is no peace of mind. There is chaos inside my head, It asks me for a little rest. It seeks out a little time for itself, Where only calmness prevails. It wants to go away to solitude, To the lap of a mother, To the hug of a father, To the heart of a lover, To the eternal love of oneself. It seeks a friend amongst the multitude, Such is a wish my heart's yearning for. It doesn't want to lead such a life, Where there's no sign of calmness of mind. Rat race is not a thing it wants, Wants a trail where i walk alone. Competition is the thing i detest, Just living for myself should have been preset. Moving on w...

EYES ! I still remember those eyes. The sparkling eyes which had a million dreams hidden inside them. Which were oblivion to the harsh world full of reality. The eyes which had cried and expressed fear, those eyes which contained laughter and also rejoiced tears. Those eyes looked back at me as crying for help, screaming inside to hear the silence. Those eyes looked deep like plenty of secrets were held in it and as if it could not take any more, they closed for a few seconds. They blinked. Those eyes were asking me questions and giving me answers. I was like a hostage to them and when they were sure of having me into them, a smile spread across the face, the face having those pearls in it. Seeing the smile, automatically, I also started smiling. Now I had the courage to face the world as the person infront of me was with me. the person in the MIRROR. Even if I was left alone by all the others I still had my last hope alive as long as I was there. In the mirror, the person facing me wi...

I love you like a honeydew...honeydew, You love me like a fairytale...fairytale, The love we have inside is pure...its true !!! You keep waiting for my question...question, I keep waiting for your answer...answer, Don't know what will be the outcome...of this lovestory !!! You are like a prince to me...to me, I am like an angel to you...to you, Would we together go...till eternity !!! You are the thief of my sadness...sadness, I am the burglar of ur sorrows...sorrows, We stole each other heart...for lifetime !!! Will you stay with me forever...forever? Will you always love me in the same way...same way? Life is hell without your love...ohh ohh !!!

Till date I have told my parents everything- about on whom I have a crush, who are my friends, whom I am talking to, what am I talking to them about, whom I am going to meet, etc- yea, somethings they came to know before I could tell them or somethings they themselves forced me to speak out but I told them everything (atleast to Mummy) and yet they do not trust me, they do not believe me. They think I am doing something wrong behind their backs. I tried hookah- I even told them that- yet they think I am upto some wrong doing. I can't everytime prove myself to be right. I become frustrated and that's how fights take place. But still I understand their concern for me but they don't understand my feelings. Going out with friends (including boys) is not a bad thing, these are our days to enjoy. We are matured enough to understand that what is good for us. We know our aspirations and we know that we have to work hard to attain those goals. We know how to balance studies and fun....

Cont.. I was talking about parents. If you had read my previous post you might have thought that I have much anger stored within me against my parents. But its not anger or hatred for them its my views about them. No matter what I think or write about the, as I said earlier, their place in my life is special and they will always be loved and respected by me. Its just that I don't like some things about them. The statements they make like: "Haan. ab to friends zyada important hain tumhare liye" "Ab toh humse koi matlab hi nahi h tumhe...dost hi sab kuch hain" "Aisa kya hai jo friends se share kar sakti ho aur hamse nahi" "Ghanton kya baat krti rehti ho phone par...unse to bade hans ke baat krti ho aur humse kuch bolti hi nahi ho" and more taunting statements like these pinch my heart so much that they can't even imagine. They need to understand that our friends are of same age group as we and of the same genre, they are facing the sa...

I have come a long way. I had my share of good and bad and today as I sit here i know what is right and what is wrong. Parents I know are an integral part of our lives, they tell us what is good for us and what is not but we are matured enough to take some of our decisions on our own. They need to understand us and trust us, they need to set us free and have our own experiences. They can't always hold our hands and lead us towards our destination. We have grown up. It's the wrong notion that parents can never be wrong. They are humans; they have different thinking and different mentality from us. They need to grasp our point of view also as we see their point when they put forward a decision. In the same way they need to analyse the situation from our side, they need to understand that we, the children. are not always wrong as they think us to be. We are independent enough to take some of our decisions. If we are contradicting them on some matters then they need to understand...

Love is a tale, I would narrate. Sitting beside my love, I feel like I am the one, With happiness and bliss, Surround me with amiss. Life is so long,love is not gone, Get it to be a part of you, And let it to be a smile for you. Crossing hurdles of my life, Only when love is beside. I can go on for long, If love leads the way on and on. Life is just a miracle to me, If love is something I would need. Penetrate my heart oh! love, You are the one I seek. Watching him from a distance alone, Fills me with joy of heavenly dose. Keeping my sight only for him, Filling my mind with thoughts of him, i never get bored, I never get coaxed; In spite I feel a relief within me, That someone is there living for me. Let me be alone oh1 gusty wind, Let your light fade oh! heavenly moon, And let me be still in a cocoon. Let the night play a havoc on my mind, As the one I love is out of my sight. I can not laugh, I can not smile, As my laughter is he whom I can't find...